How Human Design Helped Me Reconnect With Myself

It started with a memory. A quiet one. I was sitting with everything I’ve learned (and unlearned), and the moment Human Design first entered my life came back like a whisper. That memory tugged at me until I wrote it down. This isn’t a pitch. It’s a pause—a moment to witness how far I’ve come, and how Human Design has helped me soften into myself.

For some, Human Design feels like being dropped into a dense fog of language and labels. For others, it feels like a homecoming. To me? It started as a quiet curiosity, and became an experiment in remembering.

Human Design is an awareness that lives in the body—one that, for many of us, was replaced by performance, productivity, and pressure. It’s not about being told who you are. It’s about unlearning who you were told to be.

Depending on when and how you find it, Human Design can feel like a mirror or a maze. Either way, it invites you in.

What is Human Design?

Human Design blends the I Ching, astrology, Kabbalah, quantum physics, and the chakra system into a map of how your energy moves through the world. It offers insights into how you make decisions, how you communicate, how your aura functions, and where you thrive. It’s a tool for awareness, not a rulebook.

It’s a lens, not a limitation.

And while it can deepen your understanding of yourself and others, it’s important to remember: it was originally channeled through the perspective of a white man in the 1980s. That lens matters. As a Black woman, I walk into this system with the awareness that its foundation may not reflect my lived experience. So I use discernment. I adapt. And I honor the cultural traditions it borrows from.

How Human Design Found Me

I came to Human Design during a time of friction. I had just started my business and was trying to follow traditional advice from coaches and mentors. But nothing landed.

Despite my background—military, HR, years of structure and success—I felt stuck. Like a boat circling a lake with no current. I bought the books. I did the quizzes. I hunted for purpose like it was buried somewhere outside of me.

One day, scrolling social media, I stopped on a post about Human Design. I almost kept going. But something made me pause. And that pause became a path.

What followed was a wave: joy, confusion, frustration, expansion. I tried to get it “right” at first. Memorized all the gates, centers, definitions. But over time, I stopped performing the system and started living the experiment.

Who Am I in This System

I am a 1/4 Emotional Manifestor.

That means:

• I need time to ride my emotional wave before making decisions.
• I crave foundational knowledge (1st line), but I naturally share what I learn through connection (4th line).
• I’m not here to be consistent—I’m here to initiate.
• Rejection can sting. But now I see it as redirection.

Learning this shifted everything. I gave myself permission to stop forcing strategies that drained me. I stopped chasing formulas that were never meant for my design.

Human Design showed me how I move. How others feel me. How my voice carries. And how I can create a business that aligns with my energy instead of fighting against it.

It helped me communicate with my family more clearly. It helped me forgive myself for needing time. And it helped me honor the intuitive rhythm I’d been shamed out of.

A System, Not a Savior

Human Design is not perfect. It can be confusing, overwhelming, and at times, feel like yet another system asking you to contort. Depending on who you learn from, it can feel dogmatic instead of liberating.

But at its heart, it’s an invitation.

To listen. To notice. To reconnect with the way your body already knows how to move through the world.

Take what resonates. Leave what doesn’t. Let it be a relationship, not a requirement.

In Closing

Human Design isn’t something I preach. It’s something I live through. Softly. Curiously. In waves.

If you’re just beginning, here’s what I’d offer:

• Start simple. Learn your type, strategy, and authority first.
• Let it breathe. You don’t have to master it. Let it unfold.
• Find your people. Community makes the language less lonely.
• Question everything. Your lived experience matters more than someone else’s chart analysis.

You don’t need Human Design to be whole. But if it helps you remember your wholeness? Then it’s worth exploring.

Thanks for being here, —Alicia

To find your Human Design information:
Go to www.geneticmatrix.com and create your chart using your birth information.